Order after chaos

Silence deafens me
Cavernous space returns
Order after chaos
I sit alone and empty

No more Mogwai
Yppah-ness has left me
Songs of silent sorrow
Whispers in the wind

A presence is missing
Morning embrace
A kiss
And warmth

Only sad panders remain

and now that i am gone...

for hanne barb and all those lovely lovely folk who have adored this man's attempt at pure genius!

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began...

It was a DArrrrrk AND Storrrrrrrrmy night... And the Captain said to the First Mate : Tell Us a Stttorrrrryy. And so He began... ... ...

the burning crusade
blood elves (hell yes!)
flying mounts

the ghosts where the hell are you???

catchya on the death fields

- Dienasty

guys please dont sue me for this!!!!! i just loved the video... reminded me of "getting ready" for partying nights away...

yppah - its not the same

I have kissed a girl. She is lovely – picks me up from airport, tucks me in bed, shares her everything with me. It is cold now – I wear mittens and socks, mismatched. I listen to music to keep me going… I make a messy life. But you should know that by now. I will fall in love. I know.

I have looked out into darkened valley – the town you grew up in, you both. I find it alarming that I love siblings – but should I find it alarming? I can see bits of you in him, bits of him (that are just him) reminding me who is older between you both. I am still the baby. I know. *smiles soft kitten like*

And yes there is an itch. I don’t think it’ll ever fade – don’t think I want it to… What if there nothing better out in the world and this (I can live without – but WON’T!) slips through my hands. Have I become a workaholic at 21 – nothing means more to me. Well not anymore. I would have given anything to change over to normality and live with you. Yes, I say it too late. I know.

I feel like emotions have gone into long term hibernation – why doesn’t anyone mean much to me? Please let this be a phase… It has to be – all this monetary, work, employment, housing, relationship stress has caused a temporary shut down. A temporary shut down. I can’t feel deeply (anything) for anyone. Help. Melodrama you say. Are you scared if it isn’t? Drama you still maintain. I know.

Songs used to help me release, then I shut up, yes sometimes I do shut up. Not verbally, but small talk (okay - interesting small talk) is an art. That sentence reminds me of the hardest conversations I have had in recent times, pretending that you didn’t know that I knew you were pretending to see me. That you weren’t breaking audibly like I have too long ago. If only I had looked past words – if only? Then what? Couldn’t have done a thing – I am made to hurt you with brutal honesty, which is why I believe that I am only temporarily shut down. Honestly – I am not pretending – I fall in love for real. I was happy for real. I am not now, haven’t been for a while. Need closure on so many things… proper – lets sit down say our piece – closure. Is there any other kind? If you walk away without giving notice sometimes is it better? Shall I leave? Will that work? Will I just carry you, you, you and you with me – dead in a sack on my shoulder? Bogging me down as I do you. Songs that help me release a torrential downpour don’t work anymore. I am angry. But – it isn’t your fault sweetheart. None at all… it’s just I need to live a little more before I call it quits. You know? Die a few more times. Forevers for a few more days – fairies in the garden sing songs to the ephemeral. My memories are happy. I may lose out on this – but I have that. I have had that. Born lucky. Could I be more loved? Yes (ungrateful I know). But can I live happy with what I have got so far? Yes… Greed though… greed in me – I know.

Devil woman and evil alien meat eater like smelling eachother


*sigh*

sitting on the tube

if going everywhere feels like a homecoming then do i really know where i want to be?


















must enrol mee self on a sketching course. MUST.

HOW CAN YOU NOT WANT HIM?
(can Kylie be me please)


She's freaky and she knows it
She's freaky and I like it

Listen

She grabs the yellow bottle
She likes the way it hits her lips
She gets to the bottom
It sends her on a trip so right
She might be goin' home with me tonight

She looks like a model
Except she's got a little more ass
Don't even bother
Unless you've got that thing she likes
I hope she's goin' home with me tonight

[chorus]
Those flashing lights come from everywhere
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
She's got me love stoned
Man I swear she's bad and she knows
I think that she knows

She's freaky and she knows it
She's freaky, but I like it

She shuts the room down
The way she walks and causes a fuss
The baddest in town
She's flawless like some uncut ice
I hope she's goin' home with me tonight

And all she wants is to dance
That's why you'll find her on the floor
But you don't have a chance
Unless you move the way that she likes
That's why she's goin' home with me tonight

[chorus]
Those flashing lights come from everywhere
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
She's got me love stoned
Man I swear she's bad and she knows
I think that she knows

[chorus]
Those flashing lights seem to cause a glare
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
She's got me love stoned from everywhere
She's bad and she knows
I think that she knows
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]


Now dance
Little girl
You're freaky, but I like it
Hot damn!
Let me put my funk on this one time

[chorus]
Those flashing lights come from everywhere
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
She's got me love stoned
Man I swear she's bad and she knows
I think that she knows

[chorus]
Those flashing lights seem to cause a glare
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
She's got me love stoned from everywhere
She's bad and she knows
I think that she knows

[chorus]
Those flashing lights come from everywhere
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
She's got me love stoned
Man I swear she's bad and she knows
I think that she knows

[chorus]
Those flashing lights come from everywhere
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
She's got me love stoned
I think I'm love stoned
She's got me love stoned

I think that she knows, think that she knows, oh, oh
I think that she knows, think that she knows, oh, oh

[chorus]
Those flashing lights come from everywhere
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
I'm love stoned from everywhere and she knows
I think that she knows
Think that she knows, oh, oh

And now I walk around without a care
She's got me hooked
It just ain't fair, but I...
I'm love stoned and I could swear
That she knows
Think that she knows, oh, oh
She knows, she knows, oh, oh

this is a stupid cruel joke i am not playing anymore. lovers who want to tell me what i mean to them after all hell has broken loose can leave right now.